Call Me a Cow!

Pooker, Goobers, and Bear were all bottle fed.  Then I heard that breast feeding can help with spacing babies.  Considering that Goobers and Bear were only 15 months apart and then Sugar came along 11 months later I really wanted to space the kids out a little more.  I decided to try to nurse Sugar.  I loved it.  Sugar and the rest of the gang were all born as big babies that had no problem eating.  I fell in love with nursing.  It was easy, it was so easy to bond with the baby, and it saved money.  I was not one to continue for very long, my babies only wanted to nurse for about 7 months to a year.  I took it for granted, I really did.  This pregnancy has been so different. Then to have preemies, again a whole new world.

I didn't care if we nursed or not this time.  I just wanted what was best for the babies.  I gave permission for formula to be used and then I was shocked when I was asked if I would consider buying breast milk from a milk bank.  I told them I was happy to pump if it would help.  I have often heard that "breast is best" but how much better could it be?  Apparently for preemies, breast milk is like MEDICINE.  So the pumping began.

This was not easy for me at all.  It was so mechanical and so different from the natural normal process of breast feeding.  I have never had a short supply of milk and this time I am just keeping up with the needs of the twins.  They are being feed with a tube to the stomachs but will learn how to nurse over the next few weeks.   Today we got to practice.  Each baby is learning what it is all about.  I can't tell you how good that felt.  To all my friends that pump out of necessity, I admire your love of your child.  I hope to feel the comfort of two babies getting all their nutrition from mom soon, until then just call me a cow!