Cryin' For Me

So I am sitting here on Saturday morning with J by my side while I fiddle around on the computer. We decided to take things easy this weekend. We want to stick around the house. We need to clean and prepare for Thanksgiving. I know that this year we look around and the people in our lives are are very thankful for all of our friends.

One of the teens that I ran into last weekend sat and talked with us for quit a while. It was nice talking with him for a long time. One of the teens told him to come and he said not yet. I asked if he needed anything. He went on to explain that he learned at the Visitation for Mrs. T that she was an incredible person that thought he was a cool kid. He said he felt a little guilty that he never took the time to get to know her. To him she was just one of his mom's friends. He said that he realized he could have learned a lot about living and a lot about dying with grace from this lady. He was talking to me to live out his new promise to not take anyone for granted and to push himself to be social. That will be the only way he can learn what others have to teach him. Linda loved this teen and I know that she is honored that he learned that lesson from her.

In our homeschool group we still have lots of death all around us. Before the three I lost a neighbor, another friend lost a father-in-law, and this week a member lost her grandmother, all while another is losing her father to stomach cancer. This is hard for all of us. So many lessons all around. Yet we fall to our knees, we pray for each other and we have learned so many lessons from God. It is hard to move past the feelings. We will though.

So sitting here with my honey he settled on a music video, telling me that Pooker had wanted to play this at Miss Linda's funeral. Maybe I will put pictures to the song soon. I cried as I watched the video. As Toby Keith points out, "I am not crying for you but I am crying for me!"

Toby Keith : Cryin' For Me Lyrics
Got the news on Friday morning
But a tear I couldn’t find
You should me how I am supposed to live
Now you should me how to die
I was lost til Sunday morning
I woke up to face my fear
While writing you this good bye song I found a tear

I’m going to miss that smile
I’m going to miss you my friend
Even though it hurts the way it ended up
I’d do it all again

So play it sweet in heaven
Cause that’s right where you want to be
I’m not cryin’ cause I feel so sorry for you
I am cryin’ for me

I got up and dialed your number
Your voice came on the line
That old familiar message
I have heard a thousand times
It just said, sorry that I missed you
Leave a message and god bless
I know that you think I am crazy
But I just had to hear your voice I guess

I’m going to miss that smile
I’m going to miss you my friend
Even though it hurts the way it ended up
I’d do it all again

So play it sweet in heaven
Cause that’s right where you want to be
I’m not cryin’ cause I feel so sorry for you
I am cryin’ for me

Oh

So play your upsidedown, left handed
Backward bass guitar
I’ll see you on the other side superstar

I’m going to miss that smile
I’m going to miss you my friend
Even though it hurts the way it ended up
I’d do it all again

So play it sweet in heaven
Cause that’s right where you want to be
I’m not cryin’ cause I feel so sorry for you
I am cryin’ for me

I’m still cryin’
I’m cryin’ for me
Oh
I’m still cryin’