Week 19.5 - Feeling Lots of Movement

A family friend began talking about how big I am the other day.  I would have been super upset if he had been my husband, but J knows better.  This man was saying that he knows that I am already bigger than I was when I was 9 months along with Jumba.  I don't know if he is right or not but I do feel huge.  When I complain J is very good at either ignoring my comments all together or reminding me that we are having TWO babies this time. 

It is now time for me to be honest.  I am starting to need more and more sleep again.  It isn't nearly as bad as it was in the first trimester and I figure I have about 4 or 5  more weeks until we hit trimester 3, but my energy is leaving me more and more.  So is my need to use the restroom.  Last night I had the most horrible experience in this regard, well at least it was extremely embarrassing.  I was in a very deep sleep.  I don't sleep that hard and haven't for years.  I snore all the time and wake often at night.  I need to potty now but I have had real sleep issues since I was pregnant with Bagel.  So last night I was in this very deep and rare sleep and I woke up soaking wet.  J was out of town and I panicked.  At first I thought my water broke and that started a 2 hour worry fest.  My belly was still hard, full of fluid, I thought and I could feel movement on both sides of the belly.  I didn't have any tightness of pain.  I cleaned up and sat in the bathroom for awhile waiting to see if I would drip any more fluid.  I reached the embarrassing conclusion that during my dream I was using the bathroom and I must have lived that in real life as well.  GREAT, JUST GREAT.  I have two more babies to potty train and mommy, ME!   UGH!  The kids got a kick out of this, I had to tell them why the bed was damp this morning when they tried to cuddle me.   I am now at a point where I am on the toilet or dreaming about it (or both). So now I feel very old and very fat!  Good times! 

All is better each time I feel the babies move.  They are making me so happy just feeling them move around.  I know several on-line blogging moms that have lost  babies the past few weeks and then a good friend here in TX lost one this week.  So sad for us on earth but so wonderful that Heaven has gained these precious souls.  It has had me a little one edge.  With all the movement I have decided that I need to embrace and enjoy the fact that we are being blessed with twins, and each day it looks more and more like they will be healthy.  I am going forward with just enjoying this unique place I am in.  We ordered some funny twin maternity shirts because no matter what happens this is where we are today.  We need to embrace it and enjoy it.